我知道说出来很蠢……
Image source: https://www.pixiv.net/artworks/149399015 -----BEGIN PGP SIGNED MESSAGE----- Hash: SHA384 鉴于最近的精神状态一天比一天烂(双相障碍还在追我),我决定考虑试试把哌甲酯都吃了。 我知道这听着就很傻逼,而且每天400mg咖啡因+15mg右哌甲酯缓释胶囊已经很刺激了;但请听我说:重躁狂发作状态下的体验真的比我抑郁症发作时好太多了(至少,之前会发生三周不洗澡不换衣服的垃圾事)。 哦对,还有一件事:昨天我幻想了一天”如果我现在偷出来我爸的运货卡车钥匙,然后开着它去路上随机撞人,第二天新闻上刊登的内容却提到我是个浑身是病的残疾人,却依旧成功的杀死了几十个人的画面会有多好玩“。 幸运的是:因为太过于沉浸在幻想中,反而忘了偷拿我爸的车钥匙。 这非常重要所以进行了PGP签名;那么,如果后天你们发现我不说话了,那就是我被抓进了精神病院一级监护病房(笑)。 因为我后天要回精神病院复查,我在想我要不要说实话?哈哈🤭 Given that my mental state has been getting worse by the day (bipolar is still right on my heels), I've decided to consider taking all of my methylphenidate. I know this sounds completely stupid, and taking 400 mg of caffeine plus 15 mg of dexmethylphenidate extended-release capsules every day is already plenty stimulating; but hear me out: the experience during a severe manic episode is honestly so much better than when I'm depressed (at least compared to disgusting things happening like not showering or changing clothes fo...